Friday, April 29, 2005

.survival.

nothing biggie but i have been observed twice. twice by both my lecturer and teacher supervisor. basically, my teacher supervisor says it's ok but i don't think she's very generous with her marks. my lecturer, she's a bit grouchy with me but she says she'll come 4 times. this means another 2 more times for my lecturer and 2 more for my teacher supervisor.

nowadays, the students are becoming better but today was just dumb. they didn't participate in any activity that i asked them to do. they're afraid of making a fool of themselves... i wanted to say, fxck you people. you are already a fool. but of course i kept quiet. haha, wouldn't want to piss them off. they might fail my next observation.

there's no class on sunday and most probably monday but tomorrow's a working saturday which means bitchy or not, i have to go. god damn it.

anyway, i borrowed the lcd projector back. i can watch a movie on my celing now. imagine sleeping and watching a movie on the sky.... (ceiling maybe). wouldn't that be cool! i gotta get myself a projector when i grow older.

anyway, life's still a bitch and my life is as bitchy as life can be now, so... you people can fxck off. I'm tired, mainly cause i slept at 3 yesterday preparing lessons for today, i'm also cranky, dejected, uninspired, lazy, full and sleepy. damn!

Sunday, April 24, 2005

.the supervision II.

well, tomorrow is a monday. duh. i have a stupid supervision by my teacher supervisor. she says she's gonna come in to observe me today. finally, i can see how she will comment on my teaching. i am not scared anymore to tell ya all the truth. in fact the only feeling i have is relief. relief that another time is another time less. which means 'get it over you fxcking idiots' .

time doesn't always pass by so fast when you want it to. however, when you don't want it to like saturdays or sundays... it just flies by. god damn it. why does the god make time so subjective.

the truth of the fact is... i haven't finished my ABM for tomorrow. do ya all even know what ABM is? ok, for the non-teachers... ABM means alat bantu mengajar or teaching aids. it's supposed to be stupid things to help those stupid idot students understand wtf you are talking about. i mean, since they're too dumb to understand english... you need to fxcking show them pictures. like you can't explain apple? just show it to them. dumb right?

in the olden days, people just used chalk and talk and that worked out fine for us right? i mean what i would give or kill to get back to the old chalk and talk style now!

i wouldn't really mind doing all those abm's if only we don't need to write those idot lesson plans. they're fucking getting on my nerves. those fxcking idiots. wonder if my lecturer supervisor will come tomorrow. i mean... let's get it over with you dumbfxcks.

i feel sleepy. and i just reformatted my pc. hope it goes speedy gonzales now!

Friday, April 22, 2005

.the end of days.

today is the end of days. i mean week. i went to school, teaching was ok but samuel didn't come... AGAIN! haha, must've been his third time now. shit man, he's good at these. wish i would do that. that should teach the teachers a lesson. muahahaha *evil laugh*

anyway, i'm not going to the scrabble competition tomorrow cause UTM sent this letter to the school which says that we must attend a meeting tomorrow somewhere in our fakulti. forgot exactly where. haha

class was good except for the fxcking 4K1. only 23 out of 37 students came but the class was still uncontrollable. basically it's cause they don't understand a word i'm saying. everytime i ask them, do you understand, they will say yes. and then i asks them what do you understand or what did i say and they'll go numb. haha. damn crazy idiots.

however, today's class with 4sc was good. they were responsive and they at lest can know wtf i'm talking about. talk about tough kids.

a lot of my students are hawkers sons or daughters so, when i go out to eat, hopefully got discount lar.hehe.

today, i'm gonna cook for my wife. nasi tomato and ayam sambal. plus i bought flowers. :)

hope she's gonna like it and hope her days will be better. no special occasion, just feel like doing it.

need to go and cook now. bye bye.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

.lost post sucks.

i just lost a whole freaking post cause my computer booted up on me. damn fxcking shit. should've gave it to charity a long long time ago.

anyway, here's a brief review of what i posted. lol. i've been procrastinating for the past 2 days. after the supervision i didn't teach for 2 days already. i've just discussed the test papers. 4 freaking periods man in 2 days of nothing to do. wow! that was so refreshing. nice move too i might add. :)

anyway, tomorrow's a public holiday. i've never looked to a public holiday so much. the level of release and anticipation is just enormously amazing. i've been sulking about going to school everyday for the past 1 week and a half now. come to think of it, i don't ever-everrrrrrrrrr want to become a teacher. it's just sooooooo demotivating that it might kill me and my whole family cause i will go crazy after a year or two.

so, me, teh, dei and hani might be meeting up tomorrow to complain about our school. maybe exchange lesson plans and we also might talk about the upcoming english week. i mean it will be taking a toll on us, so why not make it a group work.

Hey, we're not lazy. we're smart!

saturday there's supposed to be a meeting in utm. but my teacher supervisor asked us to fetch sopme of the students to smk skudai for a scrabble competition. there's 6 students alltogether. hopefully i can bring ecot along or else i will be sooooooooooooo boring there. :)

so... see ya all next time!

btw, i plan to be fully utilizing the lcd projector and laptop next week and for the whole duration of the practical. come to think of it, it's better than spending money to buy mahjong paper. i'm broke to the extend that i can shit waterout of my xss. fxck those materialistic idiots in the world who invented money and economy!

Monday, April 18, 2005

.the supervision.

alright, my supervisor has observed me once. well she said that it was ok! OK! wtf? are you crazy, i kicked my butt to go in there and teach those dumb idiots. i mean, they might as well go to hell for all i care. i did this just to pass my fxcking exams. fxck them all. anyway, the class was ok but my lesson plan sucks. it's always about the stupid lesson plan ain't it? what's with a stupid book? anyway, my classes today are ok but tiring. i plan to spend my day sleeping. tonight i have a tuition class somemore. sucks being me and sucks being poor. damn it. fxck the whole world and their stupid money system. if everything were free, all hell breaks loose. if everything were not free. all hell will still break loose ... but just slower i guess. damn it, i need more money. time to call mom! :'( well, maybe next time i will learn how to save some sh*t for crying out loud!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

.dumb saturday.

hahaha. what a very good way to spend my saturday. yesterday was cool and all that. i mean i cooked. and after that i went to catch a movie [sahara]. it was ok and fairly simple plot but it was nonetheles entertaining. :)

however, i woke up today at 1.00pm and after that started marking my student's papers untill 12.00am! imagine that. i did stop for some breaks here and there admittedly but fxck, it still takes a whole lotta time.

i need to teach tuition tomorrow until 5.00pm dude and i still haven't completed my 10 lesson plans yet. i mean my supervisor wants to see every lesson plan from monday until friday every week. damn!

Saturday, April 16, 2005

.a very big day.

today was the most amazing but stupid day of my life. first of all, i went to school with 3 periods in my hand. one for 4 science and two for 4k1. now in my past experiences with the school, these students can sometimes get on your nerves. especially when they don't fxcking co-operate? i mean what is wrong with them? don't they have any respect for the *ahem-cough* elderly anymore! i mean i am older than them. come on, cut me some slack here alright? i've been busting my arse trying to find suitable activities.

however, much to my amazement. 4 science was quite co-operative and took a more keen interest in learning than i imagined. however, that could probably be due to the fact that 70% of the population is malay-indian. the chinese here are what we would call more 'kuai lan' or 'kurang ajar'.

4k1 was alright too. we had some conflicts at the beginning but it all turned out well. i also found out that i usually finished my lesson before the allocated time. and that usually gets me in a dilemma during the last few minutes when i have nothing.

oh yeah, my teacher supervisor came in with a cane. NO, not to beat me but the students! lol! ok, that was a joke damn it!

anyway, she came in to cane some of the students who didn;t go in the class in time and also some of the students who were sleeping. after the class, i asked her how was my class. she emphasized on TWO things.

let's move on to the first thing. blackboard management. i must divide the blackboard into columns so that i can categorize them and every instruction that i provide to them must be wrritten down in of the far sides of the columns on the blackboard. wtf? teachers nowadays has nothing to do izzit?

damn lazy mutha fxckers.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

.let bygones be bygones.

well, today is another finished day. and guess what? i have tons of paper to correct. basically the teacher says it's for me to know their level of english...BULLSHIT!
lazy as a lazy pig can be! just say that!

well, today was not as bad as yesterday. at least i didn't have 5 fxcking classes. only 3! yay! not bad for a guy who doesn't have any other classes on that day :)

anyway... nothing much happened today as i don't have a class. the students are fxcked up as usual and so is my life.... again.. let's not remember the past and focus on the future.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

.the doomed classes.

well, today is nice but something just has to fxck me up. i had 5 classes of fxcking relief classes. 4th,5th,7th,8th and 9th... screw them! those mofos keep giving me all the fucking trouble for nothing! i mean have i sinned sooooo much to deserve this? NO! this is just bullshit. everyday is a fxcked up day.

well, today was better cause we didn't kena scold. however, the newcomer did. haha! but he's okay. but i think he's the new target. cause he looks more badass than me! some parts of his hair are still brown when he reported in. :)

anyway, my relief clashed with my english class, so the original recipe... i mean... teacher needed to took over the class back. thus i was left with all the relief classes. first, there was 1D. This was basically one of the most badass class in Form 1. Then there was 4K2. This was the SECOND most bitchiest class in Form 4. As if that was a fxcking relief. sigh!

however. the school ended at 1.30 which was a fxcking relief. i need to go to sleep now. asta la vista. ttyl about my rest of the day... too tired...zz..ZZ...zz....ZZ..zz...

.lucky stars.

well, today is nice but something just has to fxck me up. i had 5 classes of fxcking relief classes. 4th,5th,7th,8th and 9th... screw them! those mofos keep giving me all the fucking trouble for nothing! i mean have i sinned sooooo much to deserve this? NO! this is just bullshit. everyday is a fxcked up day.

well, today was better cause we didn't kena scold. however, the newcomer did. haha! but he's okay. but i think he's the new target. cause he looks more badass than me! some parts of his hair are still brown when he reported in. :)

anyway, my relief clashed with my english class, so the original recipe... i mean... teacher needed to took over the class back. thus i was left with all the relief classes. first, there was 1D. This was basically one of the most badass class in Form 1. Then there was 4K2. This was the SECOND most bitchiest class in Form 4. As if that was a fxcking relief. sigh!

however. the school ended at 1.30 which was a fxcking relief. i need to go to sleep now. asta la vista. ttyl about my rest of the day... too tired...zz..ZZ...zz....ZZ..zz...

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

.brand new day with a fxcked up life.

today was devastating. first of all, i didn't want to go to class... i'm sure a lot of you feel the same but i just was sooooo freaking lazy that my spirits just died. anyway, i came to school to a beautiful morning. slept for a while in the room before this freaking idiot came in and gave me 2 periods of relieve classes. wtf? can't you see i'm sleeping mofo? well, stfu!

anyway, my practical mate's lecturer came today and i was like wtf for? today's ujian piawai you freaking idiot. but it seems that my accident prone mate who hasn't been reporting for two days didn't tell his lecturer. so fxcking dumb right?

so.. i was cruising along in the teacher's room taking my own sweet time doing my stuffs and then this guy suddenly comes in and tells me to go into the office. i was shocked. it seems that someone told the idiot lecturer that i need to cut my hair... wtf? my hair is fxckin spiky! get a grip.... well, fxck them. okay.. i said i was gonna cut it yesterday after they told me but WE HAD A FXCKING MEETING UNTIL 4 FXCKING PM! so i didn't get to do it. so... i'm gonna cut it today. heck.. i just came back from cutting it. looks butt ugly but better than going into the office and getting a shock!
after that, the headmaster asked all 4 of us practical trainees into her room at 1. i have a class so i gave it back to my teacher advisor. thank god she was kind and nice.. not like that hideous bxtch headmaster. anyway, we were fxcking scolded again. why? cause we didn't report to her.

wtf?

the first time we came to report, she was not in and we met the pk hem. he didn't tell us anything about meeting the headmaster, in fact he buat pandai pandai go and give us the timetable and everything and we terus blah lar! fxcking idiot!

we need to meet the headmaster you fxcking PK! it's because of people like you that we have a bad name!

anyway, the school has the lowest passing percentage for SPM in the whole of Johor Bahru and it sucks right? definitely!

i just finished meeting pn zanariah and i complained like hell about the administration and the students there. dumbfxck idiot students.

well... all in a day's work. :'(

.almost time.

ok, basically, here's a new update. don't kill me for blogging! i just finished my tuition class and i have no where to go so i updated my blog a bit (duh!) and i want to go and sleep. anything wrong with that? no?

dumb fxcks. of course there are!
i haven't had any time to prepare for tomorrows' classes! talk about bad time management. this is like fxcked up. how could they do this to me! i have no time to enjoy and rest. at first it was class until 4 now, this? i ate at 4.30 and it lasted for an hour. then i came back and bathe, prepared some lessons for my tuition class, went there at 8 and came back at 10! now... it's 12! i just bathed. shit happens right? but don't let it happen all over the place!

come on now, dudes. give the guy a freaking break!

well, thank god... tomorrow's a test day for my school so... no class whatsoever for me! YAY!
but i still may have to relieve classes. well, the good news is tomorrow i only have 2 periods. which means more time to procrastinate at the teacher's room with the almighty aircond. i wonder how those primitives lived without airconds.... it's so fxcking hot outside. i feel dizzy just stepping outside the room (well, maybe i'm exaggerating but who knows right? shh... don't tell!)

okok... i gtg and sleep now. talk to the blog later!

Monday, April 11, 2005

.the crazy things people do.

well, i just finished school and i came back. and what did i do? i didn't go to sleep. i didn't go to bed. i went online. jeez, i'm becoming a freaking nerd. i was like wtf? how can that be?

nevermind. anyway, sorry about some of the punctuations and capital letters. I know i'm supposed to be an english teacher and all but do i look like i give a flying fxck? no i don't. so, don't piss me off. i had a bad day as it is!

today, school was bad. i had three freaking periods of form 4 classes. the first class was a good class. i mean they are good but at the same time, some of them can be dumb. no offense students but i just can't lie! after that was the second class which is the form 4 perdagangan or ekonomi... whatever lar. it was even worse. i was telling all the students to sit down and this girl (who was already sitting down) said. teacher i already sat. it's them. and i was like.. wtf? screw you...

but i didn't say that. i said. i was not talking to you then, so shut up. talk about bad attitude. well, the purpose of my no bullshit first day in class is to show them who's the fxcking boss. don't mess with da man people!

i will make your life a living hell more than you can ever make me!

what's wrong with the generation nowadays? the students are stupid and the teachers are even worse. helding us back until 4!let me emphasize that again in big letters 4PM for a stupid bullshit meeting. I need my freaking sleep so i can wake up refreshed tomorrow! you dumb headmaster. get a life! go back to your family lar.

sheesh.... dumb administration brings out dumb people.

Donald Trump : you hang out with the losers, you become a loser!

so, yeah... i'm becoming a loser. WTF?

.the firspost.

well, this is a testing place for me to test out what I can do with this stupid blog.
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