Tuesday, December 29, 2015

2015 dalam Bahasa Melayu.

image from here.

Hari ini 29 haribulan.

Sudah hampir dua tahun gua hidup dengan peluang kedua. Dan sudah hampir satu tahun gua bertekad mengubah gaya hidup gua.

Tahun ini banyak yang I capai dan gua sangat syukur dengan hidup yang I ada. Walaupun I tak menang TOTO atau 4D tapi insyallah gua masih hidup sihat dan kuat macam harimau belang.

Bulan satu tahun ini tidak banyak yang berubah dalam hidup. Gua masih merasai dan mengecapi segala yang tuhan berikan. Setiap perkara kecil I hayati dengan perasaan berbeza, perasaan kesyukuran.

Bulan dua I masuk radio. Tak banyak yang I cakapkan tetapi I nasihatkan pemuda sekarang supaya jangan terlalu leka mengejar duniawi sehingga lupa perkara-perkara yang penting seperti persaudaraan, cinta, kasih sayang, persahabatan, dan jangan habiskan masa mengejar benda benda fizikal sahaja. Luangkan masa untuk orang yang tercinta.

Bulan empat tahun ini I berucap di MAPCU tentang pengalaman saya sebagai penerima organ. Saya berkisah tentang harapan, perasaan tidak berputus asa dan kasih sayang serta sokongan orang terdekat, Bulan ini juga kali pertama gua menaiki keretapi. :)

Lepas itu kebanyakan hari gua hanya bekerja sahaja sehingga percutian gua ke Krabi lagi. Di situ, gua menaiki gajah dan memandikan gajah.

Bulan lima banyak yang gua alami. Gua bercuti ke Boracay, Filipina dengan enam lagi kengkawan gua. Banyak yang I perolehi dan rasai di sana. Bulan lima juga gua bercuti ke Pulau Perhentian. Kawasan itu mungkin tidak sejauh Boracay atau seindah tetapi pengalaman yang gua alami di sana tidak dapat I lupakan. Tiga hari dua malam gua di sana. Memang berbeza pandangan langit di kepulauan terpencil berbanding kepulauan bandar seperti Pulau Pinang.

Bulan sebelas, gua membawa beg gua ke Vietnam sekali lagi. Kali ini pengalaman yang sangat berbeza. I mendaki bukit ke Sapa dan menjelajahi lautan di Ha Long Bay, Tahun ini, banyak pengalaman yang I dapat dari perjalanan gua. Mungkin perjalanan ini pendek tetapi pengalaman dan pengajarannya panjang. Hidup kita sekadar memori duniawi. Harta yang kita perolehi sekiranya cukup untuk kita hidup selesa, janganlah kita tamak haloba sehingga mengingkari perasaan dan nurani kita.

Luangkan masa untuk orang tercinta, habiskan wang untuk pengalaman yang dapat menguatkan rohani kita. Kamu mungkin hebat, kamu mungkin kaya tetapi banyak lagi yang lagi hebat, lagi kaya. Tetapi sekiranya kamu mulia dan kamu baik, tidak akan ada orang bandingkan siapa lagi yang lebih baik, siapa lagi yang lebih mulia. Kerana itu sudah memadai.

Kalau anda boring, lihat penutup 2014 gua disini.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

2015 in a nutshell.

Accumulated pictures from my collection of 2015. It has been a great year, 2014 was life changing but 2015 is as good if not better.

As I close 2015 and look forward to bigger and greater adventures in 2016, I am reminded always of how blessed my life and the people around me is. Let's make a toast to 2016.

Monday, November 23, 2015

Vietnam, 2015

Ha Long Bay Cruise

Sapa homestay. My bed.

Sapa homestay view

Ha Long Bay, my view.

Ha Long Bay, the cruise view

Sapa-Ha Long Bay, the train sleeper.

Hanoi, Hello Kitties

Ha Long Bay, the flag

Sapa, the kids.

Ha Long Bay, the cruise view

Sapa, the underwear. Not mine though.

Sapa, the trek.

Sapa, the trek

Hanoi, the balloons

Sapa, the view from our lodge.

Ha Long Bay, the girl who took us boating

Hanoi, TripAdvisor recommended.

Sapa, the view from our lodge

Sapa, the kids.

Sapa, the lodge, the view, the serenity

Sapa, the way

Hanoi, the balloons.

Hanoi, the kid and the stick

Sapa, the trek

From Where I Stand, Part 1.

From Where I Stand, Part 2.

From Where I Stand, Part 3.

Sapa, the skinny dip

Monday, October 12, 2015

Dear dad,

Dear dad,

It has been 13 years. We're ok here. How about you there?

Mom's fine. She's retired and just taking her time with the granddaughter. Brother has a daughter and she's as cute as a button. She cries sometimes but most of the time, she's just really quiet. Mom has her hands tied up with her. I think she's so attached to Abigail that she thinks the world of her. The whole family loves Abigail. I wish you could see her her.

Mom doesn't do much at home, she cooks, gardens and the crux of her time is for that little monster.

Brother and sister in law is mostly working and when they're not working, they're at home taking care and playing with Abigail. The whole house can be said to be revolving around that little girl now.

Except maybe mine. But that's another story.

Brother is still a bit big sized. I don't think he's ever going to be thin with his work schedule and all. I hope he's healthy though. Don't know much but he's complaining about headaches and high blood pressure. He's not really someone who's very much in tune with his body requirements. Usually he's out there and either sleeping, working or watching tv. They're great though. Brother and sister in law.

I'm fine too. I've been working and work is great. I love my job and I love working. Getting a bit lazier but still managing. Everyday is such a blessing nowadays and I worry less. Worry less about the future and about the past. I let everyday take its course. Sometimes, good things happen and bad things happen, I just manage each as it goes. Doesn't mean I don't make some plans for my future though.

You see dad, everything in the family is NORMAL. Nothing too extraordinary, we didn't change the world but now that I think about it, that's not really a bad thing. Being normal is not really a bad thing if you think about.

Oh, and dad... Happy Birthday!

p/s: there's someone I want to tell you about. Maybe next time.

Your son.

Thursday, September 10, 2015

I'm everywhere but working... NOT!

My motto in life is to constantly work now. I know this might sound absurd to the few people who follow me on social media like facebook and instagram as it seems like I'm everywhere but working. The truth is social media is just a representation of pieces that I want to show people and it is absolutely not a reflection of my daily life.

I work, a lot. I work in the mornings until most probably till the half an hour before I hit the sack. The little time I have travelling, I read and think about work. I also usually try to cram in as much time when I'm not working to meet people and connect with people.

However, I do have my time offs maybe once in a month to go explore and see new stuffs, experience new things. The little time I have not working are all spent amongst those people I thoroughly enjoy being with. The little time space in between work I usually spend on social media trying to get connections or writing blogs, updating sites.

Last month (31st August), I drove to Krabi, Thailand. It was one of the moments where I took time off. I went sightseeing, canoeing, riding elephants and basically just being and not doing.

Monday, August 24, 2015

Social media is a medium, just like a pen and paper.

I don't usually talk about politics and I have friends from both sides of the party and friends who are apolitical. However, things in Malaysia seemed to have gotten out of hand recently. When reason and truth is no longer serving the common cause and everyone is looking for ways to survive their sins, you know things have gone from the interest of the bigger people to the interest of the smaller circle.

I'm a voter. As long as the country is well managed and my livelihood is not affected I couldn't really care much. I'm not a person who has intellectual conversations about the economic status of our country, the political powers in our country or the benefits in trading or investment.

I usually talk about life, the bullshit things we did when we were young, how to live our life and be happy, getting out and smelling the roses, parties, art, culture, friends... those kind of things are dear to my heart. I'm more worried about nourishing the heart.

However, the things we read in the media are beginning to sound absurd and I believe now is the time to start noticing and doing something. Although I know most of our news highlight on certain phrases and usually leave out the context and bigger picture, the crux of the whole conversation is also usually there. Read between the lines.

If we do not do something and fight for our right and say "I don't want to be involved in this issue because it still hasn't affected me yet or I don't want to get into trouble", then I can tell you that it will be too late when you pick up your pen or open your mouth.

When failures of our country are caused by everything else from Chinese Malaysians, DAP, foreign press, media, Soros, Christians, USA, Jews or even blogs. You know accountability stands for NIL in an organization like this. If your worker or boss blames everyone but themselves in every problem you encounter, how do you feel?

Simple, it is no longer a play of defense. Some say the best defense is offense and I guess they are pledging to the little minds of the people who are blinded by their belief. When belief is blind and without reason, and we do not question our morality in the undertaking of our belief then I believe we need to reevaluate what we are taught. Religion is beautiful, it is forgiving, it is encompassing and it is loving. Remember that, Humans on the other hand, they are born with no morality, we teach them right from wrong. We teach them love. If we isolate them and do not cultivate these values that are positive and instead focus on the negative, they will grow up exactly as what we have taught them.

Social media is a platform to get your ideas and thoughts out. It can be influenced to be bad, it can be used to skew truth but it also brings a lot of good. How many times have we helped someone in need through social media. How many times have we sympathized on people we do not even know through the use of social media? How many lives have been saved through the sharing of knowledge, how many times have we learned about love and the good in people through social media?

Social media is a medium, just like a pen and paper, we are the ones who put thoughts into writing. Don't blame the social media, blame the cause of human evil, the real reason people have so much hate. Start teaching them from young about things that matter. Instill it into our text books. Teach them about sharing love, teach them about the good in people, teach them to use these tools for the benefit of our society. Instead "they" focus on issues that they feel can affect the superiority of a race. I say with a firm belief that this is a racial issue because Hang Tuah is an Islamic Chinese.

You do not speak now, you do not act now, you feel that your actions might not bring a change. Then when? When all our textbooks are inscribed with only Abu and Ahmad and none of Ah Chong and Muthu? When FB, twitter and Youtube is no longer available? When the things we are fed are the things they want us to know? How are we different from North Korea then? Are we incapable of reasoning? Of determining right from wrong?

If pre-marital kids are holding hands in the cinema when they purchase couple seats, what's stopping them from having sex in the bathroom? What's stopping them from doing it in normal seats? If you curb the action and ignore the cause you will never solve the problem.

Human Rights is universal and for a political leader to say that it is not suitable in our country, I believe that says a lot.

What I see s a desire to control, simple and easy. To control what we think, how we think, what we say, how we say and as long as we are silent the shepherds will not unleash the dogs. If we stray from the herd, the dogs will be there to get us back in line.

If you want to be the sheep in the herd, go ahead. I want to be a fvcking PEGASUS.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Spend less time chasing more & more time chasing less

I've been changing a bit I think, financially.

Opportunities have been a blessing but I find that as my income increases I spend less. I don't know whether it's because I have a new profound love for money or it's because I'm starting to know how hard it is to earn money.

I've been spending less on luxurious items or things that I want. When I'm presented with commercials of things that I want, I'm always amazed at them and think how cool they are. Then I stop myself and think whether I need them or want them. And then I think about whether it's something that I absolutely love or something that I won't regret having. I find that this process of thinking got me spending less impulsively. Which is a large part of my previous expenditures.

However, don't get me wrong, I'm learning to save not because I want to be rich or because I love money but because there are things I want to experience. Things I want to invest in. People I think I should be able to help when they need it. I've been in situations where people who I love come to me for help and I'm not able to help because I'm not prepared.

I want to change that. I want to be able to spend less and actively know that I have done the best that I can to change myself financially. Don't skimp on the experiences or needs and don't skimp on investing in yourself once in a while. Be constantly aware of what you need, what you should spend on and what you shouldn't have bought.

In hope this is the beginning of a millionaire in the making. :)

Thank you god for everything.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

PARAW Sunset Sailing

28th till 4th May I was in Boracay, Aklan, Philippines. 

One thing I love about Boracay is their Sunset Sailing. They have this PARAW sailboat where it will take you to the middle of the ocean and enjoy the sunset along the edges of their sailboat. 

It costs quite a sum but nothing beats the experience. The view is pristine and although sometimes you have to share it with a couple of others but I think once you experience it, it is a much more personal feeling. 

I'm glad I did this sunset sailing twice, the first time it opened up my eyes and I was mesmerized but I didn't really take the time to experience it. The second time, I was prepared for the moment and I sat there looking at everything and thinking about how something so simple means so much more than the materials I have.

Thursday, May 14, 2015

10 METERS down @ Crystal Cove

28th till 4th May I was in Boracay, Aklan, Philippines. 

You know that game you played when you were young and they have varying levels of difficulties? That game where you start from something small and simple and they work you up till you gain some confidence so that they can crush everything when you reach the few last levels?

That was kind of like the cliff dives they had in Crystal Cove, Boracay. They have this varying levels of difficulties to cure your feeble mind and they start you small from the 3M, 5M, 8M, 9M and finally 10M dive.

I was there early with Samantha, the rest had to leave and they'll only come back later. 

We took a walk down the plank to the edge. I just wanted to take pictures, she was excited about the jump. As I walked along the 10M plank, I took a look down, it was a far drop. These are the kind of things you thought you could do sometimes but as you edge yourself closer, the fear creeps in. Especially if you look down far enough and wait long enough.

I really wanted to jump, my stomach has a 9' x 6' scar which still hasn't fully healed. I can still feel the stretch along the lines. Samantha however, was eager and she decided to wait till the rest of our group arrives before taking the plunge. I can see the eagerness in her eyes.

The only problem with Samantha is... she can't swim. 

We waited there for an hour and watched as tons of people took the plunge. Some scared shitless and walked back... but rarely does that happen. The crowd was more than happy to encourage and cheer as people tremble with fear and shake their knees at the edge of the plank.

We watched girls and boys who conquered their fear. 

When the rest of the entourage arrived, Justin and Pete... they immediately took the plunge. I sat there in a nearby hut watching our stuffs and having lunch. I thought I would just want to sit there and watch as the rest of the gang took the plunge and get ready to go back.

As time passes by though, Desmond, Justin and Pete kept diving and diving. Samantha was there to photograph and video... but she haven't made the jump yet. She slowly gathered back her courage and asked one of the beach boys to prepare a buoy for her at the end of the dive. She walked slowly to the plank and we were all anticipating. I knew she was scared but I thought in the end she would sum up the remaining of her courage and make the plunge.

She stood there for 5 mins along the plank holding the railings. We cheered her on. Her legs trembled and her hand shook. I could see it. I was standing beside with a camera, focused and fingers on the shutter. 

She didn't jump. She couldn't. She took a walk back and smiled at us. I knew she was heartbroken and disappointed but she'd rather let it go. She admitted defeat.

I think that will be the biggest regret she will ever make in Boracay. 

As she walked back into the hut to have lunch, I smiled at her and said... let's go jump again. We'll all jump together, including me.

Nope, she was still SCARED.

Monday, May 11, 2015

One week in Boracay.

Personally, everything started in a quagmire of issues. From the departure up till the stays. However, putting that aside, the place is truly beautiful and everything was wonderful.

the entourage

the semi photographer

pool view

<3 p="">

the clown

The beach was pristine. With everyday being a party I am still wondering who wakes up in the wee hours every morning to keep the place clean. Seriously, the amount of partying there is horrendously scary. I was there for 7 days and basically every day of the week there is a party going on somewhere.

the night ppl get drunk and eat Sisig at 3AM!

island hopping

the 10M jump

the sunsets

the ATV

the peak jump

The highlight of the trip must truly be how beautiful the Paraw Sunset Sailing was. I did it twice.

the view...

28 April till 4th May 2015. Legendary. <3 p="">

.random lessons.

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