Tuesday, November 23, 2010


it's almost Thanksgiving and I weep for those turkeys in the states. It's gonna be a massacre.

Anyway, today I've decided to list down the things I'm grateful for. The things we usually take for granted because we don't realize the importance of it till its gone.

First of all, I'm thankful for a loving mom. A mom who devotes her entire life and would at a heartbeat give up everything she's doing to care for her sick family. Although she nags a lot... :)

I'm thankful for a great family. A brother and a sister that is such a dear and whom I love so much but I would hardly say it... so if they're reading this. Good.

I'm thankful for the ability to walk, move, think and do all those basic things. I was stripped of all those privileges when I was bedridden for a couple of days and couldn't even get up of bed.

I'm thankful for doctors who care about their patients and who value life. They are a beaming beacon in dark and rough times.

I'm thankful for a bed, food and a roof on top of my head. We might not realize it but there are a lot of people suffering out there. Hardly able to cope with life. We are lucky and we take it for granted sometimes.

I'm thankful for friends who care.

I'm thankful for the opportunities in life.

Most of all, I'm thankful God made humans the ability to be happy.

Take care, till next time.

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Saturday, November 13, 2010

.life is all this...

image by Tina

This is what life is all about. i might not be all of that but its nice to know i practice some of that.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

.losing your way.

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Sometimes the road we choose might lead us astray. I've made many wrong choices in my life and I'm still paying for them. But the right ones I made are worth the mistakes. There are over 6 billion people in this world and it amazes me how persistent they are to believe in themselves. Sometimes believing in yourself means having the courage to turn back, even if it's a long way back.

i slept early last night. right after i found out my feet were swollen. it's a symptom caused by liver failure and the lack of protein to retain water. i hope its temporary but still, this time something feels wrong. for a long time i never wanted to discuss about my condition, i was seven weeks old when it all happened. and 27 years of a story is a bit too long to summarize in a few paragraphs don't you think so?

i've made a few promises to god. mom made a few promises to god. we both did. and i have a feeling it'll be a hard time trying to keep up with these promises but it's easier than not living. i've always wanted to write a book and maybe in these times of complacency, i can manage the time to start off with one. how it all started, what it was like living life the way i did, dad, mom, family, friends, my vices and the wrong roads that lead me astray. also, the courage to finally stand back up each and every time an infection strikes.

now it's finally time I guess. to put me on the liver transplant list and pray for a suitable donor. all these years leading to this moment. all these years i knew about it. i knew it would come. but you are never really prepared for it. but i will fight my way back up. that i promise. i have so much more to live for. so much more people to love. so much more life left in me. and if i don't make it, i fought for it.

i guess in a way, i'm trying to say that if someone like me is willing to fight for a life that will be full of medication and immune suppressants, what's keeping you from changing your life? lead it the way you want and if you find out that the path you thought was correct is wrong... just have the courage to stand back up and find another path.

this is Jimmy signing out. take care.

Monday, November 1, 2010


I think pancakes are god's way of sending love & telling us he cares. yeah, it's that fucking good.

pic by grayskymorning.

.random lessons.

When we look down, we know how big we are. When we look up, we realize how small we are. When we look in front, we see the obstacles and l...